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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 18.06.2025 00:30

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Why did i forgive my father ?

I think the readers, may guess!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

What can you do if you are a full-grown adult, but never experienced being a child?

(And it was in our own minds.)

But ive been too sick for many years..

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

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We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Why was Boromir corrupted by the One Ring, but not Faramir in The Lord of the Rings?

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

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As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

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He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

What do you think about me (Aditya Krishna)?

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

My son died seven months ago at the age of 24 how do I know if he’s in heaven and can he see me and hear me and why have I not gotten any signs yet from him or Mom just not seeing the signs how do I know if he’s OK how do I know if he’s happy?

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

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And who doesn’t know suffering?

We all went to grammer schools

I never cut or harmed myself..

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We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

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Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

So whats the point in blame.

He knew the spot.

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I said to her

It was going to be , some day.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

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Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

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Ive learnt so much.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Why do I sweat so much? I’m 17 but I feel like I always need to re-apply deodorant and I am always self-conscious that I smell because I feel sweat under my arms.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

He resisted the act ,that day.

I don,t even have a pension.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

We were not on the streets..

I was very sick at this time too.

I was seconnd youngest,

I did it because my mum asked me too!

She married twice! .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

She loved him until the end.

Im still living with it.

My family never makes their pension either.

When she asked me how she looked .

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I will be 64.

But it wasn’t much.

She found it foreign!.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

My life is so biszare .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

She wouldn,t have been !

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

This is soul school!.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I could never make a relationship work though!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I have no regrets .

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

As i do to all so called friends.?

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

All the time i was locked up.

One cannot live in the past .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I was scared of men, in general

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Put me off passion for life!!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

She was in good health!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I couldn’t, believe it.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

But, we were locked up after school.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Comes on , in middle age.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I write beautiful poetry .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

And i lived it daily.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Would this be the day?

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I waited trembling.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

So, i spoilt her more .

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I was 9 years of age.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Especially a lifetime of it.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Who then, do I blame.?

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Was to survive, this bastard.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

What did i know ?

He was dying to do it , i knew.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.